Cold, rainy and dreary this weekend. Rained most of yesterday. Today it really hasn't rained (I think it drizzled this morning) but its been really cool and dreary. I don't know what the high was but when I went to run, I dressed up quite snuggly but was still cold.

Could there be any LESS on TV???! 3 billion channels and nothing I want to watch. I love cuddling up with a blanket and vegging to watch TV on Sundays but so far, I haven't found anything to watch.

ever since my doctor's appointment on Friday, I haven't been able to stop thinking about Scott. i miss him so much. its been fourteen months and it still seems like yesterday. a couple weeks ago I was having such a bad day, so, without thinking, i sent him an e-mail. and then it came back as undeliverable. and then i remembered. finally deleted his addy from my computer. so many times i catch myself with the phone in my hand ready to call him about something or other. and sometimes i am still so angry that he's gone. that he didn't give me a chance to know. he deprived me of that. but that doesn't even really matter anymore. i just wish it hadn't happened. that he was still in my life. that he was still here for me. and me him. but i file him away in that big file of those people who have come into my life and touched me in some way. but i keep him in the front, so he never gets lost.

PS--I'm really not as depressed as this entry sounds. LOL I've actually been in a pretty good mood. Just a lot to think about. :)


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